To Hurt is to Hide as to Love is to Share Happily and Enthusiastically

Once upon a time, my soul had been described as "an old soul." I've often heard conversations that analyze philosophical issues and the depth and maturity of my viewpoints on many issues have astounded many of my close friends, if I give fully them the honest insight that I possess. Sometimes, I do not give people the honest insight of my thoughts, because they don't really care about the topic.

In March or April of this year, I and my then-girlfriend, discussed our viewpoints on the concept of love. She confessed that she didn't believe in it and proposed a different viewpoint that couples had only matching characters. I defended the concept of love and at some point she confessed that she couldn't say she loved anyone, because she was afraid of being hurt.

I thought this to be an incredibly sad thing to say or believe, because honestly, who cares about what could happen? For me, I think love is the most wonderful gift that we humans have to offer. Why do I want to hide something so wonderful for the sole purpose of protecting myself from getting hurt? The answer is: I don't want to hide one of the most essential parts of the human experience simply so I'm not hurt by the person I love and am in a relationship with.

I've noticed a characteristic about my own personality that I believe is quite profound that regardless of being hurt, I would still enthusiastically love the next woman. I don't think people should be afraid to love each other. For me, hiding away the most essential parts of my spirit simply because I got hurt by her is nothing short of absurd.

The number of days that you have in this life are unknown — don't be afraid to live it, experience it, and especially don’t be afraid to love.

PraySecret II

On page 177 of a book in my apartment is a secret that I left behind several months to possibly a year ago.

PraySecret

Several years ago, I was in a certain city and stumbled across a church. Inside, there was a book for guests to sign. I signed it with a prayer. I don't know if I will ever know the answer I asked for.

Jesień jest tutaj

Autumn has descended on Warsaw and it is beautiful. The temperatures, like the leaves on the trees, are falling and the nights have become somewhere between mildly cold and cool.

Something about the atmosphere of Warsaw tells me that this autumn, winter, and coming year will be good. The Varsovian atmosphere is like a fine wine in which you taste a variety of wonderful flavors like apple, plum, honey, and vanilla. The wonderful flavors of Warsaw are love, the unexpected, and great memories with great friends.

I know the this will be a great autumn, winter, and new year.

I'm feeling much better about life in general and I've been thinking about how to improve the quality of my life and I've decided on the following.

• I want a quality relationship with a beautiful woman that loves me. I want her to be honest, intelligent, funny, sociable, and driven. I would like for her to show her loving emotions to me and I would like to do the same to her.
  
• I want an interesting, challenging, fun job. I want to be the most successful person in that position and become the most essential employee for that company.
  
• I want to show my gratitude that for all of the quality people in my life and help them to enjoy their lives even more.
• I want to be happy and helpful to people. I would like to start volunteering with the Habitat for Humanity of Warsaw and help build houses for families. I would like to ease the suffering of people.
• I want to finish writing my novel.
• I want to learn to play an instrument (preferably the piano or violin).
• I want to become more culturally aware and attend a ballet performance in Warsaw. It would be even better if I could go to the ballet on a date.
  
• I want to have a very close relationship with G-d, again.